Pain management

    I am glad you dropped by today.  If you have any ideas on pain please let me know.  I have my right shoulder which hurts a lot and I can not get it to stop.  I also can not get anybody to visit my web blog.  lol  :)  Oh well, each to his own.
I will try another strategy.

Limbonic Art - Darkzone Martyrium

Mommy why do I fall down

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I would like to dedicate this book to my Mother Wilma Richardson and my family and friends, who have done everything that they could to try to help me live and struggle with epilepsy.  The reason why I am writing this is not only for me, but for other children too.  With the combination of epilepsy, medication and ignorance of this neurological disorder I feel it is very important to somehow prepare children to be strong, and to be confident despite this detestable neurological disorder.  Epileptic children need to know why this is happening to them or they too will feel isolated from society.  I can only remember bits and pieces of my memory as a child, but I have always felt like this scared little child on the inside asking “Mommy, why do I fall down”? 

I fell down under an apple tree and I do not know why.

When I woke up, my Mommy was asking, “Are you ok”?

My head hurts and my eyes are blurry.

Mommy what happened?

Mommy why do I fall down?

I was so tired and I slept almost all day.

My Mommy took me to the doctor and they gave me a shot.

The doctor asked me, “are you ok” I just said I “I don’t remember” and I do not know what time it was when I fell down.

My Mommy looked scared and I did not know why.

Mommy just said I was special and that is why.

The doctor asked me what was my name?  And what day it was.

So they doctor took a flash light and looked into my eyes, and the doctor looked in ears.

Mommy said, what can we do doctor to keep her from falling and shaking about?

The doctor gave me medicine to help me from falling down.

When I awoke up the next day to play.

My friend Sue Ellen would not come out to play with me.

She was scared of me and then she would cry.

Mommy why are my friends scared of me?

Why do some people call me possessed?

Why do I stutter, and forget where I put my dress.

My Mommy is good to me and she lets me know that I am loved.

She told me that strangers do not know how special I am.

She said my heart was so big and that some people cannot understand.

How can one contain that much sadness and love in their hearts.

Only people like me Mom, for I have been through this a lot.

My Mother could make me feel special and helped me smile for a little while.

But, there was always this little voice inside me that made me feel different.

Mommy why do I fall down?

She would just say, maybe it happened when you were born.  And, my grandma would say I fell off the bed.   It can pass down in families, but I was the only one  who would shake and fall down.  The doctors call this epilepsy and It has been aroud for a very long time. 

Many years have passed  me by and I still wonder why I fall down.

My Mommy took me the doctors a lot, and one doctor said that when my brain would get excited

When my nerve signals went to fast,  this would cause me to fall down and shake.

It is like lightening coming out of the sky, but the lightening was on the inside of me.

My brain would signals and this electricity would go through my body and cause me to fall down

And shake. 

I did not feel nothing when I would fall down.

My mind was black with no pain and no pictures.

I had no pain and no sense of anything until I woke up.

My mind was just dark.

Sometimes I have weird dreams too.

Mommy why do I fall down?

Melody everybody falls down and has weird dreams too.

We also lose friends and we feel different things too.

In some countries you are very special and can sense and feel things that others may not be able

too.

My Mommy keeps my medicine in her purse, and she takes me to the doctors all the time to get

shots.

I know I can plant flowers and vegetables too.

I just may not be able to drive a car or swim In water by myself.

Most everything else I can do.

But, like you we will always feel different no matter what we do.

My Mommy says to me that my brain sends signals to my hands, arms and legs.

These signals controls everything that my body can do.

Sometimes I can do several things at a time, and I get a head of a my self and when that happens

I can fall down and start shaking.

My Mommy always taught me to take care of myself, and to get enough sleep and food that is good for me and not over work myself.

I get tired really easy and I have to get enough sleep.  If I do this I may not fall down that much.

Sometimes someone will talk to me and I will try and say something and I can not say it.  I know that I do this, I just can not stop it.  Sometimes people will talk to me and I can not answer them back.  It is like I am frozen.  Until after it is over I get scared as I see people come after me.  They are usually firemen or ambualance people trying to help me.  It is just scary to come to understand how I got from one time to another time and I was not awake.

This is call an aura because, it feels like a feeling and it happens before I fall down.  Everybody is a little different, they are never all the same.  Sometimes, I can smell a weird smell and I will get scared.

I still run and play like the other kids do

And I enjoy chocolate candy and kool aid too.

I am like everybody else, but sometimes I fall down.

If you ever get scared or feel lonely and blue just ask your Mommy or Daddy why you fall down.

Your Mommy and Daddy love you.

Melody Jett

Suffered from epilespy since childhood

Date of birth May 11 1962

As you can see I look around to be five years old.  I am 47 years old now.

Saturday, January 02, 2010

  

I would like to dedicate this book to my Mother Wilma Richardson and my family and friends, who have done everything that they could to try to help me live and struggle with epilepsy.  The reason why I am writing this is not only for me, but for other children too.  With the combination of epilepsy, medication and ignorance of this neurological disorder I feel it is very important to somehow prepare children to be strong, and to be confident despite this detestable neurological disorder.  Epileptic children need to know why this is happening to them or they too will feel isolated from society.  I can only remember bits and pieces of my memory as a child, but I have always felt like this scared little child on the inside asking “Mommy, why do I fall down”? 

I fell down under an apple tree and I do not know why.

When I woke up, my Mommy was asking, “Are you ok”?

My head hurts and my eyes are blurry.

Mommy what happened?

Mommy why do I fall down?

I was so tired and I slept almost all day.

My Mommy took me to the doctor and they gave me a shot.

The doctor asked me, “are you ok” I just said I “I don’t remember” and I do not know what time it was when I fell down.

My Mommy looked scared and I did not know why.

Mommy just said I was special and that is why.

The doctor asked me what was my name?  And what day it was.

So they doctor took a flash light and looked into my eyes, and the doctor looked in ears.

Mommy said, what can we do doctor to keep her from falling and shaking about?

The doctor gave me medicine to help me from falling down.

When I awoke up the next day to play.

My friend Sue Ellen would not come out to play with me.

She was scared of me and then she would cry.

Mommy why are my friends scared of me?

Why do some people call me possessed?

Why do I stutter, and forget where I put my dress.

My Mommy is good to me and she lets me know that I am loved.

She told me that strangers do not know how special I am.

She said my heart was so big and that some people cannot understand.

How can one contain that much sadness and love in their hearts.

Only people like me Mom, for I have been through this a lot.

My Mother could make me feel special and helped me smile for a little while.

But, there was always this little voice inside me that made me feel different.

Mommy why do I fall down?

She would just say, maybe it happened when you were born.  And, my grandma would say I fell off the bed.   It can pass down in families, but I was the only one  who would shake and fall down.  The doctors call this epilepsy and It has been aroud for a very long time. 

Many years have passed  me by and I still wonder why I fall down.

My Mommy took me the doctors a lot, and one doctor said that when my brain would get excited

When my nerve signals went to fast,  this would cause me to fall down and shake.

It is like lightening coming out of the sky, but the lightening was on the inside of me.

My brain would signals and this electricity would go through my body and cause me to fall down

And shake. 

I did not feel nothing when I would fall down.

My mind was black with no pain and no pictures.

I had no pain and no sense of anything until I woke up.

My mind was just dark.

Sometimes I have weird dreams too.

Mommy why do I fall down?

Melody everybody falls down and has weird dreams too.

We also lose friends and we feel different things too.

In some countries you are very special and can sense and feel things that others may not be able

too.

My Mommy keeps my medicine in her purse, and she takes me to the doctors all the time to get

shots.

I know I can plant flowers and vegetables too.

I just may not be able to drive a car or swim In water by myself.

Most everything else I can do.

But, like you we will always feel different no matter what we do.

My Mommy says to me that my brain sends signals to my hands, arms and legs.

These signals controls everything that my body can do.

Sometimes I can do several things at a time, and I get a head of a my self and when that happens

I can fall down and start shaking.

My Mommy always taught me to take care of myself, and to get enough sleep and food that is good for me and not over work myself.

I get tired really easy and I have to get enough sleep.  If I do this I may not fall down that much.

Sometimes someone will talk to me and I will try and say something and I can not say it.  I know that I do this, I just can not stop it.  Sometimes people will talk to me and I can not answer them back.  It is like I am frozen.  Until after it is over I get scared as I see people come after me.  They are usually firemen or ambualance people trying to help me.  It is just scary to come to understand how I got from one time to another time and I was not awake.

This is call an aura because, it feels like a feeling and it happens before I fall down.  Everybody is a little different, they are never all the same.  Sometimes, I can smell a weird smell and I will get scared.

I still run and play like the other kids do

And I enjoy chocolate candy and kool aid too.

I am like everybody else, but sometimes I fall down.

If you ever get scared or feel lonely and blue just ask your Mommy or Daddy why you fall down.

Your Mommy and Daddy love you.

Melody Jett

Suffered from epilespy since childhood

Date of birth May 11 1962

As you can see I look around to be five years old.  I am 47 years old now.

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Schemes and scams

I like to make necklaces and I enjoy doing it because it keeps my brain busy and I find myself less stressed when I keep myself busy.  I have been trying to sale my necklaces and my bead crafts and twice already I have people who want to buy them, but they want me to accept some dhl or international shippers and send me a check with excess funds with the promise I will pay the shipper.  I do not like people coming to my home.  I like to run my business and not have people email me and tell me how to sell my objects.  I am going to list a great book here for those who have no morals or manners to read.
Please do not get scammed.
Where is Obama on these scammers? Oh, he only goes after corporations who actually pay me?
Interesting.

Thursdays

I like Thursdays because it is that day of the weak that gives you feeling that the week is almost over and time to get out and collect your paycheck and maybe party, go fishing or take you kid to the movies.
These instances in life is what makes the bad times in life bearable.  I know that you can relate to me in knowing that life can be a drudgery,but all in all in its historical perspective it actually quite exciting to grow up observing others doing the same things you did when you were young. 
I was reading the news today and I sometimes get this doom and gloom feeling because the news sometimes just really gets to me.  I don't know about you but, I can get frustrated sometimes.  And, then I walked to the mailbox and mailed a letter and went to store and walked home.  I put my groceries away and then I started looking for that book gulag that was in Russia.  Very good book by the way.  Anyhow, I usually can not find things sometimes until I know longer desire to find it and then it will certainly show up when I do not know it.
I came across this Time collections of decades and it was really old going back from 1920-1930, and 1930-1940 and etc.  And, I went thumbed through the book and was able to see old pictures from 1920's and during that time and still America had the same problems with Wall street back then as America does today as well. 

Summer fun

Bill White: Man On The Run

Mothers Day

I want to wish all Mothers a Happy Mothers Day! You are the best Mother that anybody could ever have.

Accomplishments

Have you ever done something in your life where you just stayed focus on doing something and then when it was finished and you finally did it, you felt good inside? Yesterday I recieved a call from a unidentifiable person, for privacys sake and recieved some good news on a project that I was working on. I have a neurological disorder which is epilepsy and I have this disorder for 42 years. I have had to have friends and family take me back and forth to work, shopping and to doctors because I can not drive. I never know when I will have a seizure, so it is a scary thing to lose your ability to get around. I do not have a way to get anywhere anymore becuase, some people feel that I need to be independant.
I finally may be able to get the bus out here closer to where I live to where I can at least take the bus to go somewhere. I may lose my job though in meantime. But, if they get the bus out here I can at least take the bus to find another job. In the meantime I know there have been times that you also have experienced this sense of accomplishment and I would like for you to share yours with me. We all needs to share our accomplishments.

Weird Dream

I had a weird dream today and I am still having a hard time trying to gather its' true meaning. I dreamed I was in a trailor and my Dad was there and I was there and my sisters were there and my Dad had this girlfriend who had two girls and a boy. I had broke the counter and my Dad made me fix it, so he helped me with getting the tools and I fixed the counter as he said too. I really enjoyed fixing it and I was proud of my self in the dream for fixing it. Then the dream turned ugly in that my Dads girlfriends sons left arm became paralyzed. My Dad and his girlfriend first attempted to save the boy. I watched by boys arm contort and look like it had melted like butter. It was weird. But, I picked him up and was trying to save him and I woke up. What was also weird that when I woke I felt weird. I am just now barely getting over the euphoria feeling. Almost like I had been on some drugs. I hope my anti-epilepsy medicine is not doing this. Anyway, if you know the meaning of this dream I would sure appreciate your feedback.

Greensleeves

The history of the authorship of Greensleeves is still unknown.
"Greensleeves" is an old English ballad by an unknown composer. Legend has it that King Henry VIII wrote the song about Anne Boleyn, but this is unlikely.
Anonymous authorship is a common characteristic of the classic ballad, and "Greensleeves" is no exception to this rule.
I hope you enjoy the video

Family

Have you ever thought about your family differently then what you did when you were little?
When we are young there is someone in our family that usually will extol the the greatness of how family as being a great unit in our society.  Have you ever noticed how far removed that families have become?
What do you do that makes your family close?
Thank you
Duvexy

Epilepsy

Bells, Two Tones & Sirens: 34 Years of Ambulance Stories
The other day on april fools day I had an accident while I was driving.  I am lucky that I am alive.  But, I do not know but I am sure there probably was a time in your life where you probably look back and felt like it just barely skimmed by.  Well, that is how I feel now.  I am lucky to be alive and I an say I truly want to thank the paremedics, ambulance drivers and the emergency room workers for saving my life.  I am not sure if my associates appreciate you for saving me.  But, I do want to thank you.

Living on a thing line

Wii

I would like to get a Wii someday.  Anyone out there that has a Wii that can leave a review?
Thanks
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HOMEWORK

You know the only thing I dislike about homework is that it takes up a lot of my time, in which I could be fishing right now.  Maybe I could be beading a necklace and or planting in my garden today.   The worse thing about homework is the many times I have done homework, has not got me anymore closer to getting a better job then when I first started doing my homework.

Dimmu Borgir

I have been listening to Dimmu Borgir for 10 years now. They were one of the best then and they still are now.
They really help me relieve stress.
lmao
I embedded a few videos at the top of the web site.  Help yourself and leave some comments.  The music is very raw, with background music.  Heavy bass, gutteral vocals with viking sub vocals.  A nice addition for any day.

The gift of dyslexia: Why some of the smartest people in the world can't read

The Gift of Dyslexia: Why Some of the Smartest People Can't Read... and How They Can LearnThe Gift of Dyslexia: Why Some of the Smartest People Can't Read... and How They Can Learn The mental function that causes dyslexia is a gift in the truest sense of the word: a natural ability, a talent. It is something special that enhances the individual.




Dyslexics don't all develop the same gifts, but they do have certain mental functions in common. Here are the basic abilities all dyslexics share:



They can utilize the brain's ability to alter and create perceptions (the primary ability).

They are highly aware of the environment.

They are more curious than average.

They think mainly in pictures instead of words.

They are highly intuitive and insightful.

They think and perceive multi-dimensionally (using all the senses).

They can experience thought as reality.

They have vivid imaginations.

These eight basic abilities, if not suppressed, invalidated or destroyed by parents or the educational process, will result in two characteristics: higher than normal intelligence, and extraordinary creative abilities. From these the true gift of dyslexia can emerge -- the gift of mastery.



The gift of mastery develops in many ways and in many areas. For Albert Einstein it was physics; for Walt Disney, it was art; for Greg Louganis, it was athletic prowess.



http://www.dyslexia.com/bookstore/firstchapter.htm
 
This book summary is a must have.  I have been thinking about our education here lately and how the education system have been working so hard to commit a vast majority of the population as mental misfits.
And, at the same time build shrines, feel pity for little kids when they are young because they don't think like them, and then commit mental abuse against them when they are adults. 
Today you see people who make huge profits studying cavemen, trying to understand how they lived while at the same time calling modern humans retards for being the same thing.  Different hair cut and different clothes.
 

California

C

I would like express to all Californians I am thinking about you.  I am concerned for you.  I fear for your homes and I hope you keep your family safe.
Keep me up on the news. 
Have a great day. 

The Magna Carta

I just got through writing my banking instutition and I am disputing them.  It is getting to where when I read their terms and conditions their symantics that they use go against the Magna Carta
http://www.bookrags.com/research/magna-carta-gwcr/

and the
http://74.125.95.132/search?q=cache:3Q97LN-tgOoJ:www.ftc.gov/os/statutes/fcb/fcb.pdf+fair+credit+billing+act.&cd=1&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us

Hello, why is the finance charge excessive? Every month I pay my minimum  and your company are stealing my money that I am actually trying to pay off.


This needs to be resolved or I will have to file on this.

I am tired of doing what I am supposed to do, by making my minimum payment just, to have you charge me 30.00 fees on top of it. You are impeding my progress and you are marginalizing my capability of paying off my debt.

Here is part of my claims of diputation.
I have omitted the rest at this time.

Viagra Deaths

I came across this older articla about Viagra.  Now, I am passed due getting concerned and worried when people are dropping dead from taking chemicals and medications.  For some reason I am starting to believe that we may not be designed to addicted to posion. 

Intellectuals and Society

I have included this book that is written by Thomas Sowell.  He is most respected in our society and has recently written a book about intellectuals and society.
Intellectuals' downplaying of objective reality and objective criteria, says Sowell, extends beyond social, scientific, or economic phenomena into art, music, and philosophy. Above all, he reveals how intellectuals exalt themselves by running America down and turning Americans against each other.
I curious on what he has to say.

Revisiting the Thomas Hill

How interesting.  Have you ever read about theTomas Hill hearing?  Remember Clarence Thomas and Anita Hill?  I vaguely remember when this was going on long time ago, but I paid little attention to it at that time.  What I find interesting is that Joe Biden did everything he could to defend Anita Hill.
Back in the day, during the 1700's and early 1800's men in our Government talked about honor, integrity, freedom, debt and other frivolous ideas that we do not pay attention too anymore. 
Now we have soap operas, and love triangles and the fraud and curroption. 
I was suprised when
http://www.aliciapatterson.org/APF1602/Graves/Graves.html
BIDEN: "I think that the only reason Clarence Thomas is on the Court is because he is black. I don't believe he could have won had he been white. And the reason is, I think it was a cynical ploy by President Bush."

I am suprised that even that Biden got away with this. 

Dark Midevil Times

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=697f8dmtXt0

Still cold where you are at?

Brrr are you cold yet?  This weather sure invalidates the global warming theory.  Why do you supose some think that the world is in danger of global warming?  The sun is usually hot.
What say you?